Taste of Snots...

My husband and daughter were sick yesterday...Ming is having stomache flu and Felicia is having runny nose and a bit of cough since Sunday.

Anyway, by yesterday afternoon, her runny nose was definately NOT getting better, and she refuses any attempts from us to clean her nose.  She'd shook her head and said "Emoh, moh!"  and the more we insisted on doing it, the more frustrated she got and finally she'd cried....

This is her first time having runny nose, and I just didn't have the heart to see her nose all so dirty and the discharges almost reached her lips.  But still, she'd say, "Moh!" 

So my nanny told me that I should try to suck the snot from her nostril.  (We bought the tool to have the snots removed, but it just didn't work and Felicia was so angry everytime we tried it on her..)

At first I said no of course.  I'd prefer to wait for my mom and ask her to do it.  

But then I don't know when my mom is coming, and when I looked at her, I felt SO SO baddd......she's looking at me with that adorable eyes, smiling with her runny nose...

So I decided to do it.  Her nanny holding her tight, she's screaming and trying to get away, and I tried NOT to look at the fact that her snots are everywhere...and I did it.  

The first and second attempt I failed.  I didn't know exactly what to do.  But the third attempt was a success.  I can feel the snots was quite a lot when I spat it.  and once we let go Felicia, she immediately stopped crying, and it was obvious that she felt a lot better, since her nose is dried for the first time in 48 hours.

She's smiling and I thought, wow.  I AM a mom!  I mean, I may not give birth naturally, but I just suck my baby's snots!! It was a happy ending after all! and It's not in vain!!!

Then I ran to my bathroom and threw up.

A Woman....

The following is a poem by Maya Angelou, sent by an old friend.  I read it through and love it because it is very true.  I hope one day when Felicia reads or perhaps even joins this blog, she will come to understand it too ...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
 enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needs to

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...  
a youth she's content to leave behind

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to
retelling it in her old age

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry... 

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honored

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a feeling of control over her destiny.  

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...  
how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over... 

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... 
how to live alone.... even if she doesn't like it...  

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... 
whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't take it personally

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table...
or a charming inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she can and can't accomplish in a day...
a month...and a year...

Life is too short... So kiss slowly... 
Laugh insanely..Love truly and forgive quickly...

My Smart Daughter

Felicia is One year Three weeks and two days young now, She's also 9.5KG and 70cm tall.

Yesterday we went to the doctor because there's a rash on her tummy, which we suspected to be allergy but actually the doctor said it's reaction to the Minyak Telon. He prescribes a balm to replace the oil.

Anyway, so we then coincidentally found out that it's time for her to get another kind of immunization shot.

The doctor said that it's better if L.Steiner hold her casually while she's standing up instead of forcing her to lie down on the bed. Which he did, and then the nurse hold her thigh. Me and her nanny were watching anxiously, and Felicia seems clueless at first, she's all smiling from the plenty dolls in the doctor's office.

Then as the drug was injected, She, of course, started crying miserably, her face is all red and her eyes are full of tears. I then took her from Mink and saying "Ooohh, kasian ya sayang..., digigit semut ya....sakit ya...semutnya nakal yaaaa...." which basically telling her that an ant had bitten her and caused the pain...

But then, my almost thirteen months daughter immediately pointing her finger at the doctor accusingly!! Dr. Daniel was laughing out loud, and covering his eyes, pretending to be afraid of her...and my daughter kept pointing at him and making baby talks....

So Smart!